Yes, I am. Earlier, I was reading my past posts in my other blog. That was my blog last year. And while I was reading, I’ve realized how much I’ve changed. Sadly, I didn’t change positively, or at least when it comes to my Christian life. I became stagnant. :( I really feel so sad at this moment. I may have gained a lot of friends during the past months. I may have had a lot of blessings. But when I look at my growth as a Christian, I admit, it didn’t grow. It just stayed there. I’ve taken it for granted. I was wrong. :( I skip my quiet time most of time. And worse is, I only get to have my quiet time when I need it. Whenever I feel like I need His help. I prioritize my lakad with my friends more than attending the Saturday practices at Church. There are a lot of times already that I feel God’s talking to me and telling me that I should go back to serving Him through singing, but I always reject that idea. I always think that serving Him through operating the LCD would make Him happy anyway. I’ve promised earlier this year that I would attend VCF or CCF services regularly. But since summer, I’ve never attended any of these anymore. I failed Him. I’M SORRY. :( What now? I don’t want to promise anything to Him anymore. I fear of failing Him again. I just pray for a renewed me. I hope to have stronger faith in Him, a stronger relationship with the Lord. I want to feel that fire again. I long for Him..
While I was writing this post, someone sent me this text message. I would say she didn’t send this accidentally, it has a purpose.: “Oftentimes, we need to pray not because we need to change the situation, but primarily because we need God to change our attitude about the situation.”
Everyday you wait is another day you’ll never get back again. 7:58 PM
THE WONDERLAND
And if you just hold on, just find the courage to face it all for another day, someone or something will find you and make it all okay. Because we all need a little help sometimes. Someone to help us hear the music in the world, to remind us that it won't always be this way. That someone is out there. And that someone will find you. - Lucas Scott, OTH
THE BLUEBIRD
Name: Chrisen Maraña
Age: 19
School: UP Diliman
Bday: April 03, 1987
I am:
cheerful : God-fearing : appreciative : fun-loving : carefree : simple : shy at first : friendly : affable : a Christian : childlike : paranoid : clumsy : basketball fanatic : talkative : an Assumptionista : a UP student : a "skolar ng bayan" : a lover of kids and happiness : a daydreamer I like:
babies : teaching kids : smiling : friendly people : meeting new faces : being in college : learning something new : night sky : watching movies : cartoons : shopping : rubbershoes : watches : jokes : caramel sundae : isaw : street food : Starbucks : chocolates : ice cream : playing the guitar : OPM : Christian songs : watching PBA : Paul Artadi : Oliver James : Purefoods : texting : Christmas season : reminiscing : having crushes =) I dont like:
backstabbers : plastic and nasty people : mayabang : immorality : being alone : rejection : crying : fights : being away from home : boredom : studying : vegetables : banana : frogs : cockroaches : yucky insects : pretensions I love:
God : my family : my highschool friends : my new found friends : Jackadz : my champion section : my blocmates : being at home : being with children : color pink : happiness : laughing : making other people happy : daydreaming : attending VCF services : mcdo : math : MYMP : life itself I miss:
Assumption : highschool : my highschool friends : jackadz : champion section : DEIR : JANELLE : KAYLA : my Theresian dormmates : my D5 blocmates : Los Baños : being with the most true friends : staying in a dorm : riding in a schoolbus : my highschool teachers : wearing my highschool uniform : having morning talks : being a kid
